What are your insecurities?
The dictionary states that insecurity is uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence. So, how do we get from that state to one in which we feel liberated and secure enough to not focus on such negative thoughts?
A Little Story
I have always been a reserved guy. Never have I been the outgoing type that talks to everyone and is the center of the conversation. Since childhood, I have been very reclusive, much like North Korea.
I have always put up this wall around myself, maybe to shelter my emotions and protect my introversion which I valued greatly during my formative years.
Quietness and isolation dominated most of my life. I recall times when all my family members would be gathered at my home, seated in the living room making jokes and having fun, and I would retreat to my lonesome bedroom to lay in the dark.
I have always been introverted, shy, reserved. I always stayed away from the lights for a lot of reasons and sometimes for no reason at all. People scared me, not in a frightening way but in a way that would dig up my inner insecurities.
I remember sitting at dinner tables and wondering if everyone was looking at my acne riddled face or analyzing the way I held my fork. Going to school and other gatherings and thinking everyone was checking out my ill-fitted pants or huge, unstylish backpack.
Many times these people were not even focusing on the things I thought they were. Everyone was busy minding their own matters. But, in my mind I was the center of all the negative attention.
Point is, my inner turmoils have always been to my detriment inside and outside of social arenas.
It has been an endless struggle to let go of that person. The one who is super self-conscious of everything. The way I look, speak, work, laugh, walk, run, dance, eat, dress. And over the past few years since I started my spiritual journey, I have realized the reason behind it all.
I am my biggest enemy!
It is amazing how much we think our enemies are external. The enemy are our adversaries, our backstabbing friends, our cheating ex, our uncaring parents, the bully at school or work. Always leaving out the biggest adversary of all…
After years of self-torture, self-afflictions and self-deprivations, I have finally come to the conclusion that the enemy is not external at all, it is my own mind.
The thought of this being true is frightening, but a study has shown that the mind produces around 70,000 thoughts per day, majority of which are negative.
Just think about it for a second, 70,000 thoughts and maybe over 50% of them are influenced by negativity. What does this conclude?
Only one thing, the mind is our most powerful tool but also our most powerful enemy. It is always raging war against our conscious self, attacking our forts and raiding our camps.
Not with grenades and canon balls, but with insecurities, self-esteem issues, demotivation, disappointments and letting us question our self-worth. The mind is always thinking, always moving, always producing, and we cannot stop it. But this is what motivation speaker, Prince Ea says we can do:
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The mind will always be there…
The mind is going no where. You were born with it and it will be there until you blow your last breath. You can try to control it all you want, but the mind is influenced by its surroundings, its environment. It is always conjuring up the demons along with the angels and there is always an inner battle going on between good and evil.
As Prince Ea states, the only true way to control the mind is to ignore the mind. At least, the negative thoughts it produces.
When we react and focus on those thoughts we are attracting them into our lives, providing an opening for that part of the mind to continue feeding us all the negative bullshit.
You are not worth it
You are stupid
You are lazy
You are weak
You are ugly
You are poor
All the thoughts geared towards depression, lack of self-confidence and overall self-worth.
You may not be able to control the mind, but you have control over the thoughts you promote.
Start highlighting the positive ones and they will begin to flourish and sooner or later become the greater part of those 70,000+ thoughts you produce everyday.
Doubt, fear and our insecurities are behemoths, they are super powerful and intimidating, and the fact is, they are not going anywhere. They will always be there letting you question your every move and actions.
However, you can choose to fight back or allow them to hold you down and keep you in that cage of negativity.
Remember, it is your mind, but you do not control it. You only control the thoughts you choose to be manifested in your life.
Which thoughts do you promote?